Now I know why Jesus told me not to live for the temporal.

I know I'm supposed to be studying now. But I just can't take it down that my brother, my ruthless brother, broke my high score for solitaire. I knew that my victory was gonna be temporal, but why. Why did he have to smash my ego so quickly. Now i can't represent Singapore for soliaire anymore fabian. ): And if I do badly for my mid terms, I can't say I achieved anything anymore.. :'(

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. Alright, enough of my nonsense. Exam today was..... sigh. All I can say is that I'm clinging on to the fact that my God is a wonder working God. (: Haha. Anw, tried studying with Jamie love at coffeebean today. And guess what.... haha. Bingo, we hardly studied. Haha Great heart to heart talk & all the laughter & tears ( due to eye irritation caused by looking at her. Haha, kidding!) was worth my 3 hours. (: Love ya loadssssssss.

Oh! And I saw Clara and Angel today! Hello, if you're even reading this. I miss you girls, really. ;)

I love reading my archives. Looking back and laughing at my silliness, looking back and seeing God's unfailing goodness, looking back and seeing how at one point of time I was so extremely focused and on fire for God. When I blogged the post below, I remember the overwhelming joy that filled my heart.

Monday, June 19, 2006

NO YOU CAN'T GET ME DOWN.
cos im happy happy happy (:(:(:(:
oh lord you make me sooo happy;
the way you brought the sunshine along in my darkest hours,
the way you looked at me when you hung on the cross,
the way you smile when i do something silly,
the way you whisper into my ear saying "everthing's gonna be just alright".

to be in your presence every moment,
to wake up each day knowing someone's waiting to say good morning,
to live each day for you,
to know that i don't have to hide who i am or try to be someone to make you love me,
to know tt im forgiven no matter how deep the stain of my sins were,
to know tt i'll never have to walk alone,
to know tt i've got to the solution to every problem, yep tt's YOU. (:
to know tt my future is in your hands,
to know you've got a great plan for all our lives and you know it all
to know you never fail and your promises are true and are coming to past,
to know that you died that we might live

the thot of your majesty,
the thot of how your enemies tremble at the sound of your voice,
the thot tt you're on my side,
the thot tt you're watching over me.
the thot of what you've done and what you're about to do
just the thot of YOU.
lord, you make all the difference(:
indeed, i don't need another reason to smile.

He who has begun a good work in me, will finish it.

Okay, I'm gonna try to read some of my readings as a lullaby. Lets see how fast I knock out.