I can't believe I bidded for Gene and Society which is an 8am lecture, conducted twice a week. I bidded for it with the thought that at least Shiduan and Wenyen are gonna suffer together with me! But due to mis-com, I'm gonna have to take this module ALL BY MYSELF ): Louisa and Judith are in the other group! ): ALL BY MYSELF, don't wanna be all be myself. Its gonna be an experience though, since last sem I was blissfully surrounded by my friends in all 5 modules. I cant imagine :S Ahh man.
Was planning my tutorial timetable, checking my NUSmail and work bin when it suddenly occurred to me- school (loads and loads of work and stress) is gonna start in a few days. And I'm gonna have to work triply hard this sem to pull up thy sucky CAP. As much as the fears of uncertainty are overwhelming me, I'm very excited with what God's about to do in my campus! Yea, I know I'm contradicting myself. How can I trust that God can and is able to bring people to Himself when I can't believe Him that if I trust Him (and actually work hard) He'd be able to help me with my studies? Its the same God with the same powers we're talking about here anyway. Haha
I would think that believing in someone means entrusting everything completely into that someone's hands and resting assured that the person's gonna make sure everything's alright no matter what happens ? How often I've allowed doubt to slip in so easily; especially when it seems like there's a cause for me to get real worried.
I must say that when God said He believes and sees the good in me, the feeling's really great. And when anyone doubts your intentions, or even your sincerity, it sure is very saddening isn't it? Yea, God sorta brought this into perspective for me that He would feel the exact same way too, won't He?
How did You feel when you saw me typing the word worry?
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