With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm (:

Hello world, it's been a busy busy busy week for me! So many things to do, so little time. Boohoo! What does Esther do when she's stressed out and feels like she can't remember her countless deadlines? (No prizes for getting this one right.) She spends her time drafting a pretty timetable and a list of "things-to-do"!!! Yes, I did just that, again.

And after so many years- from my secondary school days, to my junior college days (I have influenced jamie well, HAH), and now my university days- it has proven to be unchangingly and effectively therapeutic. And the therapy starts even before I start filling in the boxes with "when am I gonna do what"! i.e. Therapy begins when I draw boxes? Haha. Yes... I derive happiness from drawing boxes I think? Haha! But yes, after filling it up, I get depressed at the amount of work I've to do, and when I realise how little time I have left, I get even more stressed. And when I fail to do what I've planned to do for the day, the workload piles up, then I get EVEN more depressed. HAHA! Ask Jamie what I'll do next? Haha Yep, I'll make a NEW timetable, and feel happy bout it again! (:

Hmm, I'm currently at stage 1 where I'm still feeling happy bout my pretty new timetable i drafted during lecture today! Haha. Just that stage 2 set in pretty quick today. I realise I really have ALOT ALOT to do! Haha. But somehow, I didn't feel that stressed tdy. Though I've got 5 tasks/deadlines this friday, one thing that just kept ringing in my head was, "I'm not afraid. Cos I have You. And that makes all the difference. (: Let's just do one at a time, together." LAI BAAAA, WO BU PA! :D

I've been really happy. I feel like I've finally been able to let go of some stuff in my life that have been holding be hostage for the longest time. I really feel so liberated. Just as I confessed my sins, laid my pain, my disappointments and the unforgiveness I bore at His feet, I felt like there was such a divine exchange. I always thought it was harder than that. I thought I had to get it right before I could be free. I thought I had to do many many things like pray for 30 days or go to a youth camp before I can really be free. But I was wrong. All I did was to tell Him that I really really didn't want all of that anymore, and to ask of Him to take it away. And He did. Nothing complicated. I gave it to Him, He took it away, gave me something better. That's it. And the feeling of such freedom, love, joy and peace is just so awesome (: