After many late nights of tears and tissues, I have finally finished watching the hong kong drama serial called, "Heart of greed." And I'm actually so glad I'm done with it. Was just telling my friends of how it consumes me so much that I wake up feeling so sad, whenever I think of the show. Alot of strife, family politics, death and love triangles= not my type of show! I really cannot take these kinda shows! Guess I'm gonna go back to my mindless chick flicks with happy endings where the boyfriend doesn't die.
I was just surfing the net and checking out the VWOs that are offering scholarships for social workers to see which one would be more suitable for me. And I realized, "Oh man, I'm so weak. Cannot take death, unhappiness even when its only a drama serial, how am I ever gonna be an efficient and strong social worker who could be there for my clients?" I went to check out the children's cancer foundation and really couldn't bear staying on the page for very much longer.
As much as I have a great passion for my major, as much as I'm super excited to start working, I'm afraid. I always thought being a social worker was simple, help people only what. But I've come to realize it's really really not an easy profession at all. There's so much more I've to learn and experience. But thank God for God. Thank God that He's with me every step of the way. Thank god He's gonna help me even as I take a step of faith to trust Him, believing He's in control of everything and that He's the one that holds my future.
I was just surfing the net and checking out the VWOs that are offering scholarships for social workers to see which one would be more suitable for me. And I realized, "Oh man, I'm so weak. Cannot take death, unhappiness even when its only a drama serial, how am I ever gonna be an efficient and strong social worker who could be there for my clients?" I went to check out the children's cancer foundation and really couldn't bear staying on the page for very much longer.
As much as I have a great passion for my major, as much as I'm super excited to start working, I'm afraid. I always thought being a social worker was simple, help people only what. But I've come to realize it's really really not an easy profession at all. There's so much more I've to learn and experience. But thank God for God. Thank God that He's with me every step of the way. Thank god He's gonna help me even as I take a step of faith to trust Him, believing He's in control of everything and that He's the one that holds my future.
2 comments:
hey est,
just randomly blogged surfed after work today and pop-ed by your blog. When I was reading this entry, I believe that I see a person that wants to step up and out to help others, but are afraid of the emotions that surrounds it.
But you know something, I believe that the strength that is needed is always given JUST when you needed it. Its somehow always is there, just when you needed it most.
Just step out and help others, physically and spiritually. Maybe one day, when I have an off day or something, bring you to see the cancer kids at KKH.
Anyways, till then,
God bless,
Brian
I'd love to (: Thanks Brian!
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