First week of placement

Here I am, at the end of my first week of placement, different. Even though it's only been a week, the experience has been a really impacting one. For one, I've been waking up at 7am and sleeping by 12.30am the past week. (Which I haven't been able to do so for like the past 1000 years. Haha) I am waking up each day psyched to go to work. I know work hasn't exactly sunken in though it's pretty hectic already but I'm enjoying every minute of doing what I have to do- even if it's simply using the photocopier.

It still feels rather surreal that I am really doing I've always dreamt of. Even if it means drowning in files of paperwork, case conference mtgs, trainings, programmes, reports, I'm not complaining. It's been such a pleasure, really :) Never thought work could ever be this fun, this fufilling and such a joy.

I don't deny the fear I've been feeling inside- the insecurities about my abilities, the fears that I would not be able to handle my work well or that I might ruin someone's life. But I'm trying my best not to let these fears get to me, trusting in Him that He's the one who's gonna enable me to be able to do what He has called me to do. And I know that I can't do it on my own. I was really anxious prior to the first day of placement... Endless what ifs, the uncertainty and all. But God calmed me down with this verse:

"Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep." Psalm 127: 1&2

I thank God for the support of my friends who have been constantly there for me thru the week. Your care and concern means the world to me :') Thank God for my colleagues and classmates! They're like super fun and nice. Thank God for God. Learning to fix my eyes on Him, to live for Him, to spend every waking and sleeping moment with Him by my side- the feeling's awesome. It's such a wonder and a blessing that my work brings me closer to Him Haha. I'm extremely grateful that the Lord of all the earth, would see something in me and be willing to invest His time, His effort, His son's blood for me. I'm grateful even as I begin to see God unfold His plan for my life. (: I'm excited.

Got off work at 8.30pm today and now I'm still rushing my reports due tmr! Better get going!