Hello world. It's been a long time since I've updated this space. As you would have guessed, I've been super busy with work. I'm already going into the 7th week of my attachment this coming monday. Time flies, huh. As much as my life is seemingly gone, reality is far from that! Heh. I cannot deny how tired I am from work, but I can't suppress the joy and excitement I feel everyday when I wake up for work.
I get muscle aches very often and they never ever recover. My fellow Fei Yue attachment mates make me laugh so hard every other day. Haha. Priceless company :) But beyond that, work has become a place where I get edified, encouraged, challenged, inspired. Was never really able to grasp what it would take for one to be a "living testimony" but I think I've seen it for myself in so many colleagues and classmates these 6 weeks. When you have been with Jesus, you talk different, you react different. People feel different around you. :) It's very obvious. It's very simple. And I have been greatly encouraged by that.
I want my holidays. I want to nua. I want to go out and chill with my friends. I want to take afternoon naps whenever I feel like it. I need my rest. BUT I don't want placement to end. :'(
I've been feeling so tired all week and I couldn't put a finger to what was I tired about. This evening, when I actually took time to slow down and reflect, I just felt so sick and tired . Sick and tired of living for myself, with my own agendas, chasing after worthless dreams. It's real tiring. I realised that I've been trying so hard to be who God wants me to be with my own strength. And it's tiring me out. I guess I need to understand the fact that I would never be able to amount up to that with my own efforts, no matter how hard I struggle to. Yea, learning to surrender, learning to trust, learning to love, learning to prioritize all over again.
I get muscle aches very often and they never ever recover. My fellow Fei Yue attachment mates make me laugh so hard every other day. Haha. Priceless company :) But beyond that, work has become a place where I get edified, encouraged, challenged, inspired. Was never really able to grasp what it would take for one to be a "living testimony" but I think I've seen it for myself in so many colleagues and classmates these 6 weeks. When you have been with Jesus, you talk different, you react different. People feel different around you. :) It's very obvious. It's very simple. And I have been greatly encouraged by that.
I want my holidays. I want to nua. I want to go out and chill with my friends. I want to take afternoon naps whenever I feel like it. I need my rest. BUT I don't want placement to end. :'(
I've been feeling so tired all week and I couldn't put a finger to what was I tired about. This evening, when I actually took time to slow down and reflect, I just felt so sick and tired . Sick and tired of living for myself, with my own agendas, chasing after worthless dreams. It's real tiring. I realised that I've been trying so hard to be who God wants me to be with my own strength. And it's tiring me out. I guess I need to understand the fact that I would never be able to amount up to that with my own efforts, no matter how hard I struggle to. Yea, learning to surrender, learning to trust, learning to love, learning to prioritize all over again.
2 comments:
hellooooooo! finally you're back writingggg :)
you're not alone. you never are.
here we go, on this journey to finding the truth and love and God and ourselves and all that we thought we used to know becoming what we don't know.
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